After a nice, long-time-coming, well-deserved trip to Disneyland with a good friend, I feel the clutter in my mind put into neat little drawers, ready to tackle the big things I have coming up!
It feels good to get all of this out there. It feels good to truly manifest the growth I want to see in my life. I hope to see you cheering me on, as I continue to work for it.
Learning to care for myself as a content creator has been one of the longest, most arduous journeys I’ve ever faced, and to be completely honest, it will probably be a constant one. It’s one thing to worry about the variable income that comes from full-time, independent content creation, and it’s another to worry about the mental weight of not only that, but everything that comes from being in a space that gets inherently looked at as competitive. Sometimes it gets so overwhelming, that I can’t even begin to think about how to grasp that weight, and throw it out of my mind.
The first EVER Gayming Awards is happening this Wednesday at 12pm PST, and I'm super excited and honored to be co-streaming it onto my Twitch channel!
I wanted to write this not only as a moment of catharsis for myself, but also because I know several non-binary folx out there might feel the same way. No matter where we fall on the non-binary spectrum, I know several of my friends have felt pressure to present more masculine, or more feminine to feel desirable, and sometimes, more androgynously to be valid.
2020 was a mess. We can’t ignore that fact, but that doesn’t mean we can’t go into this new year with a sense of hope.
I wanted to do something special to thank those who support my Twitch channel or my Patreon page, and I've always loved the idea of sending holiday cards, so that's precisely what I'm doing!
Though Thanksgiving has some problematic historical contexts, I still enjoy taking today to take stock of what's going on in my life, and noting all the things I'm thankful for. It's magical for the brain, and so helpful for reminding us what's important in our lives.
Take care, be gentle with yourself, and celebrate as much as you can, even if it’s just making your morning cup of coffee. The world is stressful, but you're allowed to take a bit of a break from it, every now and then, and recognize how much you've accomplished.
When I talked about how I felt in the pandemic before, I brought up that concern regarding the lack of face-to-face interactions, and how that would be my biggest obstacle. I know how to keep myself busy at home, so I never worry about getting bored, but now the concern is the lack of novelty in any experience. Lack of inspiration.
Lack of creative fuel.